"Honestly, I just think Bette Midler is just okay."
“Just okay? Have you seen Gypsy?”
As much as Rachel was enjoying spending time with her dads and catching up — incredibly amused by their petty arguments, her quality time was interrupted by the loud ringing of her iPhone. It was Evan. She was tempted to ignore it, but she knew how easily worried Evan could get, so she she answered it, excusing herself from the room. “It’s Evan,” she said, making her way upstairs to her room. She tapped the talk button and greeted him.
"Hey," she said.
"Hey, how are you?" Evan replied, just as cheerful as usual.
"I’m alright, just catching up with my dads."
"Oh, am I interrupting…?"
"No, it’ll be fine. What’s up?"
"Nothing, I just miss you."
Rachel held back an audible sigh. Evan would do this so often — call without anything to talk about. Sure, he was her boyfriend, and that was a usual thing with relationships, but Rachel just didn’t feel like it. Especially not with everything that was going on in her life. “I miss you, too,” she said simply.
"So how much longer, Rach?"
She rolled her eyes. Her voice quickly got intense. “Why do you keep doing that?”
"You know what."
"What? Help me out here." It sounded like he genuinely didn’t understand, which only made Rachel angrier.
“‘Rach!’ You keep calling me ‘Rach!’”
"Shit, I’m sorry, will you just tell me —"
"No, tell me why."
"Why you keep calling me ‘Rach,’" Rachel said, clenching herself. How could Evan be so stupid.
"I don’t know, I’m not sure if you noticed, but it happens to be a popular nickname for girls named Rachel."
That comment just made her more upset. “I’m hanging up on you.”
"Babe, don’t do that."
"I’ll call you back later."
"Wait! Won’t you just tell me why I can’t call you Rach?"
"I’m not talking about it."
There was a silence. It would’ve gone on for longer, but Rachel wanted to just get the conversation over with and spend more time with her dads. She just wasn’t in the mood to talk to Evan at all.
"I’ll call you later," she said.
"Okay. I love you."
Rachel looked up from her iPhone at the sound of Evan’s voice. She’d been in deep thought; her meeting with Lauren bringing back countless memories. She tried to keep from going back to those moments in her head, but it was virtually impossible. She couldn’t stop thinking about it. When Evan finally arrived, she let out a small sigh of relief before breaking out into a smile. Alas, a distraction. “Hey,” she said, clicking her phone off as he leaned down to kiss her lips in a peck. “How are you?”
"I’m good, just came back from Ty’s band rehearsal," Evan said as he sat in the chair Lauren was in only moments before. "He invited me to check them out. They’re really good. They have a show on Valentine’s Day. We should go," he offered with a smile. It wasn’t Rachel’s favorite idea for a Valentine’s Day date, but she shrugged it off. If she said no, he would’ve pressed it on, so there was no point in objecting. Evan could be annoying sometimes when he wanted something.
"Sounds good," Rachel said, still smiling. She started to look out of the window over Evan’s shoulder as he continued to talk, her eyes somewhat dazed. She couldn’t pay attention at all.
"Isn’t that awesome?"
"The manager at Gia’s," Evan said, hoping she remembered what they were just talking about. What she even paying attention?
"Oh, uh, yeah, it is." Rachel frowned a little bit, looking back at him, forcing a smile.
"Is everything alright, Rach?" he asked, growing kind of worried. He held her hand in support over the table.
"Rach?" Rachel asked, raising an eyebrow.
Evan was taken aback. “Do you not want me to call you that…?”
"You never really called me that before," Rachel said softly. "Only…um…a couple of people called me that. In Ohio."
"Oh. I’m sorry. I’ll just stick to Rachel, or babe," he said with an awkward chuckle. He cleared his throat. "Are you sure everything is okay? Weren’t you with your old friend from Ohio today?"
"Yeah, and…" Rachel trailed off, losing herself again, deep in thought. Where was he now, anyway? He never —
"And what, Rachel?"
"Oh, I don’t know," Rachel said, tucking a piece of hair behind her ear. She felt Evan start to stroke her hand in a comforting manner. "It just brought back a lot of memories from high school."
"Tell me?" Evan said gently. "If you don’t mind."
Rachel licked her lips nervously and looked down. “There was this guy…named…” She felt her teeth slowly curl over her bottom lip in effort to make out the first sound in the name. “You know, it doesn’t even matter any more,” she said looking up, putting a smile on her face. “That was the past, okay?”
Evan was slightly confused, but he nodded, trying to study her face.
"That was the past," she repeated, "and you’re my future." She looked confidently in his eyes. He squeezed her hand and smiled at her.
He’d been wanting to say this for so long, and it finally seem like the right time.
"I love you."
Rachel’s eyes widened. They hadn’t taken that step in their relationship: the huge L word. She didn’t want to say she loved him too; she just simply wasn’t sure. She couldn’t say no, because that would make him feel like he was wasting his time with her. She just had to improvise in that moment. She leaned over the small table between them and kissed him deeply, in an effort to distract him.
He pulled away and looked at her. “You. My house. My bed. Now.”
She giggled as he pulled her and held her by her waist as they exited the coffee shop. Rachel had a lot of thinking to do…
She was so tan, and she looked so — ew. Not to mention she was flirting with Evan. -_- Not okay.
And she’s famous because…?
This is from a talent showcase we did at NYADA last year :]
Doing this restaurant called Gia’s. If you want some good food and some good sounds, come out tonight :] We’d love to see you there!
Finished with her four year term at NYADA, Rachel is trying to figure out her next step in life in New York City. After mastering her craft in musical theatre, she plans to follow her Broadway dreams, but is still unsure of what the future may bring. She’s been doing little plays in the city, but nothing Broadway-big yet. She’s still getting there. She’s happy with her life, living with her friends, Kurt and Blaine, but she’s still somewhat troubled with her past. She’s made a lot of mistakes, and she’s learned from them, but what she’s done is still irrevocable. She still lives with a lot of regrets.
While her dads help pay for the Berry portion of the rent for the apartment in New York, she earns her own money for food and other things while playing little gigs at clubs and bars with her musician boyfriend, Evan Fitzpatrick. They’ve been going out for almost a year now, and they’re pretty serious. She loves him, but she’s afraid she doesn’t love him as much as she loves her.
Whether she likes to admit it or not, she’s still in love with Finn Hudson. But she hasn’t seen him nor heard from him since the closing of their first semester in their senior year at McKinley High School in Lima, Ohio. After cheating on him too many times too count and splitting up with him too many times to count, she thought they were finally starting to patch things up. But then, he just disappeared. His step-brother still isn’t sure of where he is.
It’s hard for her to accept that she has to be over him, because he’s obviously over her. However, it’s difficult to just forget him after everything they went through together.
So here she is, in New York City, so close to her dreams, and very pleased in her life but still not in her happiest state. She’s finally an adult, and almost out on her own. Will she stay in New York and complete her dreams? Or will her past come back to haunt her? We’ll all have to wait and see to find out.